Walking on the Drawn Path
In order to break out of the mold, you first need to realize what value judgments you have.
In this long period of time when I am in search of a new route, a change of direction, I keep coming back to the same sources, the same boundaries. I do it within the boundaries that I have been taught, that I have been shown, that I have been able to discover. In the long term, I seem to keep going in circles.
I’m aware that I’m limited in some way, and I think only I can change that. In video games, there’s a general framework, and when you get to that point, the system prevents you from going further. I want to go beyond that limit, because I’m curious about what’s going on. There might be something there that I haven’t tried before, and I might be contented when I get there.
An ordinary person has predetermined and designed paths ahead of him, coming from previous generations and society. It is expected to comply with these. Unfortunately, that’s what I did, and I walked step by step on the drawn path. When I look back, I see mistakes, and where I am now feels like a compound of these mistakes.
I am now in search of a “thing” that I can do as myself. First, I have to realize what limits and behavior/thought patterns I am in, and then I have to search for how I can overcome them. To be yourself, to reflect your own unique character, and thus do something.
