Up and Down
I decided that I needed to pay attention to what I ate when I saw that the foods I took into my body greatly affected my energy and chemistry. Because there was an extra shift waiting for me to be done in the evening after work. New things to learn in the field of web development, projects to be done and positions to be researched and applied for.
I should have been even more careful when I was pretty close to making a career change. I posted a sheet of paper on the kitchen cabinet that I could see easily, on which I wrote down the nutrients I needed to take on my body.
But I’ve found myself eating unhealthy things for the last 2 weeks. I feel so tired and exhausted. I am aware that there are things to do, pending tasks, and interviews I will attend… But I have difficulty concentrating and giving myself away. I’ve always focused on the nutrition part of it till now. I told my experience from a single point of view. Of course, this has multiple dimensions; mental fatigue, the people surrounding your life, and the events around you that you cannot change. I’m skipping here for now :)
Maybe I’ll tell you another day, I don’t know. Now I’m going to take a step again tomorrow morning to beat this. I will start over again. We must learn to control our willpower. Maybe The Education of the Will would be a good start.
On the other hand, there are so many factors around us that distract us, try to attract our attention, and want to take our time. These are as close as the phone, or computer screen. No matter how hard I try to protect myself, even if I turn off the notifications of all applications, including WhatsApp (except for 3–4 applications such as alarm clock, and calendar), I found myself spending a lot of time on these screens.
I have my own excuses; creating an online presence, following the developments, and finding new opportunities. And don’t we hear this around us; “produce content, be present in social media channels” so how can we protect ourselves from them? How can we focus on the 20 in 80/20 that will really benefit us? I’m trying to understand Cal Newport’s Deep Work and apply it to my life. We may not be aware of it, but perhaps we are running after all the options and missing them all. Maybe we should choose the most suitable one for us, believe in it and go after it.
I try to try new things in my life and see the results. Sometimes we will lose in this game, sometimes we will win. If you’re going through a similar cycle, don’t worry, you’re not alone. Life is always up and down.
