Reflections from Within
Learned helplessness, pressure from the environment, missteps, roads not traveled, places not seen, prejudices taught, the feeling that it could have been otherwise….
In my life, which has been like The Truman Show for a long time, I find myself striving for something, falling, getting upset, defeated, giving up, and trying to figure out how to get back up again. I am reminded of a conversation I had with a colleague in the past years (he is nearing the end of his career) and he said “Life is already hard”. When I look at it from a general perspective, I see a lot of small problems that come to my mind, problems waiting to be solved. This sometimes makes me very tired, I wonder how I can overcome them. But whenever I solved them, I would feel better and realize that I was stronger. Achieving something, and overcoming something requires being able to struggle.
The country you live in, the environment you live in, and the people you have to communicate with every day inevitably shape your thoughts, there is no escape from this.
The recent sharing of an educator, whose thoughts I value, who manages to look at things from different perspectives, and who manages to reflect and enlighten people, has led me to new questions. While traveling abroad, he expressed his critical thoughts about his own country after observing his surroundings, the ordinary people of that country, and their lives. As we stay in the fishbowl, we may become unable to realize whether there is a fishbowl, what it looks like, and how it shapes us. Those in power are aware of this and can shape society as they wish. The important thing is how much the people in that society are aware of this and how they follow the path.
I want to go back to myself again when I am about to write an article that goes from individual to social. Even though I realize that I occasionally come to dead ends, I am still looking for new ways. This time I want to take new paths without making the mistakes I made again, I strive. Isn’t it the biggest risk not to try when it is clear that being afraid of trying will make you regret it in the future? I describe life as an experience, a journey of discovery, a phenomenon in which we always learn new things, I should live by reminding myself of this often.
