After them
In the aftermath of the major earthquake, pain, sadness, despair, and a huge void were left behind. Losses, incomplete stories, and those who will never be replaced.
One does not know what to do. I was trapped in so many different emotions at the same time. Most of all I felt desperate, wishing I could turn back time. I wish it was a nightmare that I forgot when I woke up.
I don’t know what will happen next, or how it will continue. I guess time will tell. Life in some geographies is of course more difficult. I wish that peace will come there too and that no one will ever have to experience such pain and loss again.
I had been away from my goals and expectations for a while. Things were not going as I had planned, and I was often thinking about what to do now. Of course, I was missing life in this way. I was even thinking that I was in a state of letting go. You may have noticed these things in my recent articles.
Now I’m thinking again, taking my head out of the sand and thinking about what else I can do. At least I’m trying. I know things are going wrong, I know it’s not what I want. But I’ve started to take steps again, even if they’re small. I have something in mind, at least this year I have the will and the faith to take concrete steps towards living and exploring.
I wrote this article not to create even more pessimism, but to put down on paper what I was thinking and feeling. May tomorrow be full of hope for everyone.
